Nightmare
I am standing in front of the counter in the school office. The school secretary is chatting amiably with another staff member; while I wait to get her attention, I nod my head and smile as though I am part of the conversation. Meanwhile, I am juggling three large notebooks that are slipping out of my arms. One of them falls to the ground, and papers scatter across the floor; in dismay and embarrassment, I begin scooping them up.
Then I wake up.
This dream that I had during my second week on the job isn't far from the reality of what I have been experiencing as a new, school-based OT: Trying to get my foot in the door, establishing relationships, figuring out how to carry lots of stuff, and fighting to stay organized and on top of my paperwork. (The OT work itself--treating a diverse caseload of students--is another whole learning curve.)
Any change in jobs (not to mention careers) involves an adjustment period; but I was totally unprepared for the dizzying disorientation I felt during my first couple of weeks. Where was the school, the entrance, the front office, and the best place to park? Where was the room where I would be seeing students, the bathroom, the teachers lounge where I could eat my lunch, and a computer I could use? Who was the school secretary, the principal, the resource teacher, and the classroom teachers who had the students on my caseload? Who were my students, and how soon would their faces be familiar enough that I could pick them out from the other students in their classrooms?
Assimilating all this information in one school would have been challenging enough, but I've been assigned to nine buildings. On most days I work in two or three different schools, and there are two schools I typically visit just once a month. No wonder it's taken me awhile to remember that this is the building where I can park in the back, and this is the one where I'm better off parking across the street... this is the building where I use the music room, and this is the one where I use the art room... this is the building where I move my magnet to indicate whether I am IN or OUT, and this is the one where I don't have to sign in... You get the picture.
Difficult as it's been, the stress of this transition has given me a feeling for what children experience at the beginning of the school year, when they are faced with a different classroom--sometimes a new school--a different teacher, a different group of classmates, and a new routine. Of course, for many preschoolers and kindergarteners, the whole school experience is new and unfamiliar; no wonder they may feel overwhelmed! And then we raise the bar each year, reminding the students that they are not as young as they were the year before, and that more is expected of them.
I don't think we pay enough attention to the stress of transitions and how to ease the way, whether it's bringing a new employee on board, helping students begin a new school year, or preparing the students on our caseload--and their parents--for the "leap" from grade school to middle school, middle school to high school, high school to whatever comes next.
As I continue to grow in confidence and knowledge in my new career, I'll try not to forget how it felt to be a "stranger in a strange land." I'll be a better therapist, for it.

